sometimes

Sometimes, i feel that there are too many things to be done, but…i always think of nothing. Sometimes, i found its easier to tell whatever i want to, but…i do realize that im not saying the words that i created deeply inside. Sometimes, I’m afraid of making someone hurt, but..i did it! Sometimes, i always thinking how small i am, but i always know that im that strong to face it. Sometimes im trying to smile, but most of time..i keep on crying. Sometimes, i think I’m OK but i hate the ‘OK’ is! Sometimes im proud to be myself, but..i do think what if i be like her/his. Sometimes i smiled while remembering how sweet the past that i went through, but..its sick! So sick..!

Sometimes, i feel that the difficulties in making decisions, then i always let others make it for me. Sometimes im not satisfy, but i just shut my mouth. Sometimes, i knew that im tired of pretending, but i know others do feel the same. Sometimes, i remind myself not to be greedy, but still..im not able to interpret the ‘greedy’ means to others. Sometimes, im sorry for whatever i did, but sometimes..what for?

Sometimes, i miss my past. I miss the energetic that i had. I miss the responsibilities that i can handle. I miss the  things that in my hand. I miss the tiredness after finishing the programme. I miss the mess that activate my mind to think wider. I miss the success after. I miss my friends. I miss the problem that they make on me. I miss when they make me realize how stupid i am. I miss the cry after. I miss the way they ignore me. I miss the annoyance they created to me.

Because, sometimes..i think, that’s the reason what type of me today.

The strong of me!
The mature of me!
The cool of me!

But today..
Let me shout..SHOUT…S-H-O-U-T!!!


PLEASE…THIS IS VERY NOT ME!
VERY NOT ME!!
Very Not Me…
very not me……………………………………………………………… very not!

T-T

i miss my past!

I don’t care what type of grammar used!

~ oleh INFINITY di Ogos 2, 2008.

Dikirim dalam ..cerita duka.., derita jiwa~

3 Respons to “sometimes”

  1. kalau free lawatilah http://janaduitunittrust.wordpress.com

    insyallah..=)

    kamaruzamanomar berkata pada Ogos 2, 2008 pada 9:41 pm | Balas

  2. Don’t you ever wish you were someone else,
    You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
    Don’t you ever say you don’t like the way you are.
    When you learn to love yourself, you’re better off by far.
    And I hope you always stay the same,
    cuz there’s nothin’ ’bout you I would change.
    I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
    If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
    Don’t be afraid if you’ve got something to say,
    Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.
    Believe in yourself.
    Reach down inside.
    The love you find will set you free.
    Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
    Have faith in what you do.
    You’ll make it through.

    this lyric is dedicated to you…

    terima kasih banyak..i love this lyric.
    it’s a song?? would you plz send me the info about it, i wanna hear and have it. Sangat menyentuh..

    i’ll copy and put at my board…again, arigato..=)

    are_t berkata pada Ogos 3, 2008 pada 11:40 am | Balas

  3. sukew dgr lagu sometimes by britney spears

    ade eh? hehe

    crazylove berkata pada November 9, 2008 pada 9:42 pm | Balas

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